Blog By Donna

My 3 biggest fears

It’s Sunday and time for post two in the 30 Things I want My Son To Know About Me series.  Today’s topic is – “Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.”

Be sure to check out all 30 Things I want my Son to Know About Me — as I’ll be adding a link there to each of the 30 topics as I finish them.

Fear #1 – I’m afraid that I am a bad mom

I so fear that something I’ve done, or said, or a choice I made has or will mess my son up.

Scar him for life…

Seriously, I really do fear I am a big #momfail. This fear came about during my last trimester of pregnancy. The reality that “I” was having a baby sunk in and I began to experience all these fears. Now eleven years later, I still have this fear.

I do the best I can, but worry that just maybe… my best isn’t good enough.

Fear #2 – I am afraid of public speaking

I don’t mind speaking to small groups of people, especially if I’m prepared, and not what I’m talking about, but I really, really, don’t like to be in front a a large group of people (especially if I know them) speaking. Can you say, “Anxiety attack”?

It’s funny that I actually took two speech classes (and got A’s in both) in college, but let me tell you, my nerves were shot, my stomach was a mess, and I thought I was going to pass out before each and every speech I got up to do.

Fear #3 – I am afraid of developing Alzheimers

The thought of not being able to remember my loved ones or all the things I’ve learned over the years terrifies me.

TERRIFIES me.

I’ve always had a zest for learning and to think one day I would just forget it all, scares me. And to not recognize my son or my husband — is heartbreaking.

I think these are probably my 3 biggest fears. Not sure how legitimate they seem, but they are real fears to me. Oh, I also suffer from musophobia.

Come back next Sunday when the topic is – “Describe your relationship with your spouse.”

What’s one of your fears?

 

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